Thursday, March 19, 2009
外婆
Just last Saturday, I woke up realising I was in tears.
I was at my maternal grandpa's house, standing near the metal gate with the door opened.
Mom and dad were there too, and we were talkin' to grandpa.
It felt like we're about to leave grandpa's house after the casual chats.
At this time, I happened to turn around and I saw my grandma standing outside the gate.
She was wearing a blouse + 3/4 pants in royal blue with brown prints, resting a brown handbag on her inner elbow.
"外婆!" I shouted and pointed at her direction.
Mom and dad looked at me in disbelief.
The next moment, she was in front of me.
I told mummy that 外婆 was really there, and that she was just 'here~', pointing to the frontal.
It appeared that I was the only one who could see her. (from this point, my grandpa wasn't in my dream anymore)
I asked her 'how are you?', but I couldn't remember what's her reply anymore. But based on what I saw, she looked great. Seemed to be living well in another place.
Her replies to me were brief; sounded like the way she talked after she suffered a stroke months before her departure.
What's strange is that when she replies me, she doesn't look at me in the eye. Instead, her eyes were lookin' elsewhere though she was just in front of me. It's like she could hear my voice, but she couldn't see me.
After a few exchange of conversations, she passed me a piece of A5 paper.. with scribbled miscellaneous chinese wordings.. i read, but can't make out what it meant.
This time, 外婆 looked at me in the eye and said..
"外婆其实一直都在外公家。。 可是我在这里够久了，我要走了。"p/s: I talked to baby a couple of times, about where 外婆 is at now that she's gone .. :)Almost immediately after hearing that, I burst into tears and wailed ..
"Noo... Nooooo!" i cried.
My alarm rang on a SATURDAY morning of 6 o'clock and shoke me awake.
It's weird, because I set my alarm to ring on weekdays only.
I double checked my alarm settings, and the settings were correct.
Then I told baby about this, he asked me to check my world clock. Alas, the date was 14th Mar 2008 instead of 2009, and that day on 2008 is a weekday.
I must have set it wrongly when I got my omnia back from servicing.
In anyway, i think it's fated.
She came and left me a message, after that she's gone.
The dream is gone.
四年了。。
舍不得。
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xuexue | 9:55 AM
